Love is surrender

Cheers! It’s been a while since I have written, and the only thing I can blame this on is sheer laziness. I would love to be more tasks oriented (that’s a lie) but whenever I have some down time I would way rather sit in my room doing absolutely nothing, or go to the beach! Its not like I am super busy (well I kind of am) but communal life can be seriously draining, so when I get to be alone I take it and run with it. I have been here for over a month and I love it. Time is flying by and I have no clue how to slow it down, so I am soaking up every moment and fully enjoying myself. I am going to be completely honest with you about my experience here, because it’s not all rose beds and butterflies. I didn’t expect it to be perfect either, I knew I would grow and things would change, I would change. Change and detachment are a few of the biggest things I have been faced with. Isis said it perfectly the other day “here you will learn about plants and how to detach from life.” She was really talking about the impermanence of things, people, and situations and learning how to let them go when they are ready to be let go of. I have had to let go of parts of myself and my personality that no longer serve me. I am also learning how to get in touch with my emotions and really see myself in a new light. Every experience I have had has taught me something about myself, and brought out parts of myself I have suppressed. Beyond all the drama of our everyday lives is a secret lesson we are supposed to learn to further the evolution of this life. If we can push through the “problem” and get to the heart of the situation so much growth can follow. In the end living in a community such as the one I am living in is seriously beautiful. We are all here to support and love one another. This is such a beautiful thing to watch and feel. Watching others open up and grow has helped me blossom too. Last Thursday was Isis’s last day on the farm. Now it’s just me Bettina, Gil, Michael and the new guy Peter. I have seriously become attached to Isis and she brings such an amazing dynamic to the group. I especially love that there were three girls, having three works really well. Letting go of people is just a fact when you come to this farm, so you both have to embrace it and let go or resist and suffer (which really goes for all things in life). When I came to Maui my intention was to embrace change, and that’s exactly what the island gave me an opportunity to do. I’m not complaining, but it’s definitely been a nice little challenge. As all things in life the universe, god, whatever, gives you opportunities to grow. Sometimes these growth opportunities aren’t as grand as others but in the end all growth is a positive move forward on our journey! Now I have three weeks of stuff I have done to write about, I will try my best to get that done sooner than later, but seeing as my 21st birthday is tomorrow….I might be a little occupied ;) . Peace and Aloha!