Butter-fly away

Last weekend was a good weekend; it included the usual, friends, beach, and fun. This week has been a weird week. Tuesday in our morning meeting our manager Lisa told us to prepare ourselves because the week was supposed to be hot, with no wind, clouds or rain. The day ended up being super-hot with no wind or clouds. Around 10:30 I decided enough was enough and organized a rain dance. The organization of a rain dance is quite easy, It goes something like this “hey guys, let’s do a rain dance”. After dancing around and being blessed with two rain prayers from Bettina and Michael we went back to work. Ten minutes after our dance heavy clouds came with their friend the breeze and blessed us with hours of shade. Around 1:00 the rains set in. Not only did it rain, it poured, and it didn’t stop until Wednesday night. Everyone was so shocked that it was raining; the raider didn’t even pick up on the rain. It was seriously crazy, we were the only place out of the whole state of Hawaii (aka all the islands) where it was raining. Either we are seriously good at rain dancing, or I had a pretty good intuition rain was on the way. It was awesome, and since it was still pouring Wednesday, we didn’t have to work. Instead of work we got to do seed inventory and watch The Botany of Desire. It was nice I didn’t have to work because I woke up with a sore throat which turned into a full on cold (or something) so I ended up not working Thursday and today (the 22^nd). Getting sick seriously put a damper on my weekend though. Tonight is the full moon which means the full moon party and I am stuck inside my room. I am grateful for my health though, getting sick has helped me take some down time to nurture myself. It forced me to stop and rest, something I haven’t really done since I came to Maui. I have been reading, sleeping and actually laying out in the sun (most people wouldn’t assume this is normal “sick behavior” but it actually helps a lot). The past two days have also given me an opportunity to re align with my personal path. I have sat with myself in silence and heard the yearnings of my soul, which felt so nice. I find it so funny that it takes getting sick to really stop and take care of myself. It makes me think about all the people who don’t take enough time for themselves, and how much we could all benefit from doing so. Maybe getting sick is a way of forcing you to get rest when you don’t give it to yourself. I also have come to the conclusion that since my throat was the source of this “dis-ease” I have a block in my throat chakra. I realize I haven’t been fully speaking my truth, fully expressing myself and maybe being too accommodating to the point where it forces me to ignore the expression of my needs. This is something I know I have done all my life; I only recently realized this aspect about myself. I am now looking at how I can connect to my needs, fulfill them, but also be there for other people without compromising myself. I won’t lie and say it is easy; as a matter of fact it scares me. The funny part is I am not sure why I am scared of expressing my needs, and using my voice. When I finally seize the opportunity to do so I realize it isn’t scary at all. Maybe I have a deep seated belief that says “if you don’t accommodate others they will not like you”, which would make a lot of sense for me. I am grateful I am in a safe environment that encourages the expression of ones needs. Being here has opened my eyes to this habit and has helped me start to work through it. So I am actually pretty tired its only 10pm but sleep comes easy when your letting go of a cold! I hope all is well for everyone! Maybe you could even ask yourself if you give yourself enough time to rest, and what areas could you nurture yourself more? Are there times when you are too accommodating and push your needs aside? Growth is beautiful! Lori Grace, the owner of the farm says “we aren’t just growing plants, we are growing people”. Let’s celebrate our growth together, cheers!